One day at a time...

I think that now that I am getting closer and closer to baby's DD, I thought that I would try to write daily to keep track of what is goin on.

Now this will be TMI and please, feel free to mention your input in the comments below! I love to hear how other mommies went into labor and what their experiences were with it.

Ill first start off on what happened a night ago. Sunday morning at about 1am I was having some pretty good cramping, I went to the bathroom because I was having loose stools and the cramping eased a little when I was sitting on the toilet. I sat there for probably almost an hour.

Once I thought that I was done I decided to lay on the bed and see if I can get some sleep between these so-called contractions. I had these pretty consistently for just over 2 hours! Breathing between each one, taking it one at a time. I really thought that i was going into labor. But sadly, in between one of them, I fell asleep and did not wake up till later that morning when my personal toddler alarm woke me up.

I was mad, yes, because I felt like all of that was for nothing!

But really, I know it's not for nothing because having these pains means that my body is getting itself ready. Maybe I dilated or effaced more than before? Who knows?!

So I went to church that morning with my family. Enjoying my time talking with all my lady friends. You never know if it'll be the last time before I have my baby. :)

Now this morning around 3 am, I woke up with a lot if pressure in my bum. Thinking that I needed to go to the bathroom, I went to go and and nothing. I was having cramping again, but not like the early morning before. I went to bed after about 10 minutes on the toilet of doing nothing.  Snuggled up next to my warm husband and went back to sleep. Now this morning at 8 am, I have Josiah up eating breakfast, still have the same pressure in my butt and have BH that follows the cramping. It is all pretty irregular. Back pain has been added to the list. All of it is very tolerable. My son doesn't like that I don't want to pick him up as often. So we snuggle on the couch instead. :) Every time I get these pains, so many thoughts run through my head.

Am I ready?

What are we gonna do about Josiah?

Can I handle labor and what it's all cut out for?

Etc.

I get scared sometimes, thinking about these what ifs. I tell myself everyday that I can do it, I have pushed a baby out before you think that I would have it down by now. I know what to expect for the most part, but every labor is different. How can you be prepared for the surprises ahead?

Well that's all my thoughts for today.

See you all tomorrow!

-Jess