Bad Fall for Prego. :(

On monday I took a nice little fall on my butt down the last set of my stairs.
Don't worry though, baby girl is perfectly fine!
What really sucks is that because of how hard I fell, I ended up cracking my tailbone. :( Transitioning from sitting to standing and visa versa is probably the worse pain that I have ever felt in my life! It's like shooting stabbing pain if I used that bone in any way. I never knew until now how much you use your tailbone.It has been 3 days since my fall and the pain is still pretty bad.  Another thing that sucks is that I can't use a good pain reliever, Tylenol with a little extra kick is all that I can have. It only takes a little bit of the edge off. I hate taking it because it makes me feel all drowsy and tired. So I just wait until I go to bed to use it. What good am I if I  am sleeping all day? Poor Josiah would go stir crazy!

One of the things that was mentioned by the Dr.(who wasn't very fond of the idea of me not birthing at the actual hospital)was that I can be sore so long as to the birth of my baby. He was just a regular Dr., not an OB or anything like that. 
I called my midwife in tears, I was so glad that she was able to calm me down and reassure me that yes I can still do this. 
Honestly both she and I don't think that the pain will go on that long. I think that he was just trying to scare me so that I can get a midwife that worked in the hospital. 
I did that already, and I wasn't too happy with how everything was with the birth of my son. 

His words were, "midwives are great, but birthing at the hospital is much safer than birthing at home(or birth center). If there was a problem you won't be able to get the care that you need right away.
Really? Is this what they are telling all women?
I have read enough books and watched enough documentaries to know better. I am happy with my choice and I feel completely at peace with all of it.

Anyway enough of that, I just wanted to let you all know what is going on. I can't drive anywhere and I am pretty limited to stuff in and out of my home. So getting out of the house is a no-go, unless somebody can be my driver.

Vaccinated...Chicken Pox?

Yep, my little one has the Chicken Pox.

Sadly, because it is so mild the doc said that it is not even close as contagious at the real deal.

So to my mommy friends that were hoping to get their kiddos sick, there is a good chance that they won't get it even if they come in contact with my son. 

Sorry. :(

I will still keep him away from public places for a few days though, just in case. 

As always I did some reading on my own.

This is the site that I found that seemed to have the closest info that his Dr. gave to me.

http://www.escambiahealth.com/immunizations/chicken_pox.htm

I just pulled a few things of info that I read that was interested me

Can you get chickenpox if you've been vaccinated?

Yes. About 15%–20% of people who have received one dose of chickenpox vaccine do still get chickenpox if they are exposed, but their disease is usually mild. Vaccinated persons who get chickenpox generally have fewer than 50 spots or bumps, which may resemble bug bites more than typical, fluid-filled chickenpox blisters. 

Josiah is part of this small percentage.

Compared to the real deal, I like this better.

If he was not vaccinated this is what would be different.

What is the chickenpox illness like?

In unvaccinated children, chickenpox most commonly causes an illness that lasts about 5-10 days. Children usually miss 5 or 6 days of school or childcare due to their chickenpox and have symptoms such as high fever, severe itching, an uncomfortable rash, and dehydration or headache.

Also the red bumps are more like big swelling blisters. It is highly contagious.

-This is what I had as a kid, the chicken pox vaccine didn't come to the states till 95, by that time I have already had the virus! That goes the same for my husband.

I have my own reasons for vaccinating, and I don't judge those who don't.

I have too many "crunchy", "hippy" mommy friends who decide not to vaccinate, and they are still awesome moms. :)

That's what's been going on here. Love you all and I hope that you have a great week!

-Jess

Sick Little Boy

My poor baby is sick today. Last I checked he had a 101 fever. He has been extra snuggly lately.
This is one of the very few times that our baby falls asleep in Daddy's arms on the couch. I told Ben, remember this, we will blink and he will be a teenager(not as cute and cuddly).

As an infant, the only way that he would be able to sleep was by himself, in a quiet dark room. It seems like now that has changed. A good change.

Cherish these moments

It's 5:30 am.
I can't go back to sleep, not just yet.
My son, yeah, he still does the occasional waking in the middle of the night. 20 months old and he still does this every once in awhile.

First it was 1am, I had Ben go and get him to bring into bed with us. Josiah whimpering for his mommy, I scooped him up in my arms and just held him in bed there with me. Even in the darkness of the room, I can still make out his baby-like features that he somehow still has at his toddler state. He easily falls back to sleep, right there in my arms close to my chest. I can smell his newly washed hair from his bathtime that I gave him. Breathing his baby smell in, kissing his head. Oh, I need to love and cherish this.

3am comes around and he starts to shuffle in his sleep waking me up, I wait for him to get comfortable before going back to sleep myself. Finally he settles sleeping on his tummy, closer to daddy. Daddy puts his arm around his son. They look so warm and comfortable sleeping there together. I love my boys so much! Before going back to sleep, I just watched them sleep together for awhile. What a beautiful thing to see right before snoozing away.

5am. Josiah is whimpering, which turned into crying. I decided then that I think he was ready to go back into his own bed, and he was, he fell back to sleep on his own, without fighting, without crying. He was ready to have his own space again. My sweet independent little boy. Having him sleep with us half the night was bittersweet in a way. I got to spend time with my oldest child, my son. But I lost sleep, being 22 weeks pregnant, I need my sleep. Tonight I didn't care. I wanted him to be comforted, I wanted him to know that he is loved and that his mommy is there when he needs something-anything.

Why did I write this random post?
Because I want to remember. He is only this little for so long.
This is what I have learned lately.
We must take advantage of these moments. He will never be this little again, he is just the sweetest little boy all snuggly and cuddly.

Society has us thinking that we need to make our children, our babies independent.
Yes we do, but does that mean that he has to "cry it out" to be independent?
He can say words, but I know that tonight he just needed his mommy. He needed to be near me, to hear me breathing, to smell me right next to him for a little while.
Sleep is precious to me.
But my son is even more precious.

Still mia. :(

Keyboard is still busted. :( unfortunately we have not have the finances to fix the darn thing and there are more important things to take care of before the luxury of a working computer. Thank you all for being so patient.

I have been forgetting lately, but I will start posting videos again. 

Videos are easier because I can just upload them straight from my phone.

22 weeks pregnant now, but here is what has been going on for the past couple of weeks before.

Pregnancy Vlog for week 22 is coming soon!

Pregnancy Vlog Week 20